Black Dog

So my depression has really taken hold over the past week, which is making organising an exhibition really difficult!

But I am keeping on keeping on.. even with custard for a brain..

Also... strangely.. I tend to be more creative when I am depressed... so have had a bit of a painting surge... and I really, really like what I have created. 

Not sure they will be dry in time!! eek! 

But I am so excited by them. I couldn't sleep with excitement after I painted the first one! Stupid really. 

But, because I am depressed I am also beating myself up for not having this breakthrough sooner!! This is definitely stupid! My inner voice really is a dick. 

Shame you can't change your inner monologue like the voices on a satnav...

Black Dog = Something New

My depression flared up a treat today. 

Depression sucks.

But, strangely, I tend to be more creative when I am depressed. And more willing to take risks. I guess when I am that low I figure what have I got to lose.

So I have been trying out something new:

Still don't really know what I am doing. But, despite the depression, it feels right.