Black Dog

So my depression has really taken hold over the past week, which is making organising an exhibition really difficult!

But I am keeping on keeping on.. even with custard for a brain..

Also... strangely.. I tend to be more creative when I am depressed... so have had a bit of a painting surge... and I really, really like what I have created. 

Not sure they will be dry in time!! eek! 

But I am so excited by them. I couldn't sleep with excitement after I painted the first one! Stupid really. 

But, because I am depressed I am also beating myself up for not having this breakthrough sooner!! This is definitely stupid! My inner voice really is a dick. 

Shame you can't change your inner monologue like the voices on a satnav...

Still don't know what I am doing!

Oh my! Time is moving way too quickly.

6 weeks till I hang and I am still not completely sure what I am doing! 


But... I do have 3 mixed media paintings that are close to finished that I am liking. 

But (again)... I am an artist prone to temperamental fits of creativity... and all 3 works could easily be destroyed during one of these! 

Though, they could also be improved during such fits. This morning I hated the De La Warr Pavilion painting and in a fit of pique I cut it into three and that seems to have worked. 

I am working on images of buildings and structures around Bexhill. I am not sure why, but my exhibitions are often site specific. In this case, I think I have been looking for an 'excuse' to create work based on the things I see every day. Especially when they put scaffolding up around the Clock Tower. (Oh my! I love scaffolding!) I like making photographs 'right' by breaking the image down into the lines and the positive/negative shapes that I am seeing. Does that make sense?

Someday my prints will come..

And that day is today!

I still have no idea what I am going to do with them. 

And I think I have had them printed too large.

Eeek!


Looking forward to my next day off to start playing with them...

Shit! I've just realised you can't tell scale from this. Just believe me.. they are big!*

* A1 and A2 to be precise. So not massive... but truly big!

Preparing for my new show.

So I have a show in less than two months.

I have no work for it.

I had a great idea. But was a local gallery rejected the idea with no explanation.

This bummed me out. 

But I have to pick myself up, dust myself off and make some goddamn art!



So I took some photographs around Bexhill:

I just need to figure out what to do with these now...